But Where Is The Lamb For The Burnt Offering?

Abraham Tested

22 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, “Abraham!”

“Here I am,” he replied.

Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, whom you love—Isaac—and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on a mountain I will show you.”

Early the next morning Abraham got up and loaded his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. He said to his servants, “Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you.”

Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”

“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.

“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”

Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” And the two of them went on together.

When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 11 But the angel of the Lord called out to him from heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!”

“Here I am,” he replied.

12 “Do not lay a hand on the boy,” he said. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”

Father, forgive me for the absence of my sacrifice. Countless times, I have brought the fire and the wood, but I have brought no lamb for the burnt offering. I have lifted my hands and uttered with my lips, but my heart was not ready to give you everything. The altar I prepared was empty, meaningless, void. I was only willing to prepare the altar, but never willing to offer up the things I hold dear.

Help me to remember that Your name is above everything else. To love You, I must give You everything else that I love. Nothing must be before you, and everything that is must be placed at the altar before You. I ask for courage, faith and obedience birthed from love, to place my sacrifice on the altar and pierce it through the heart. I want to come broken, naked and vulnerable before You, with a spirit that is willing to be guided by You and a heart willing to be moulded by you. Amen.

13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram[a] caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called that place The Lord Will Provide. And to this day it is said, “On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided.”



You Are Faithful

You are faithful, You never give up, never give up on me. You are able, to finish the work You started in me.

You are stable, through every change that this life could bring.

Drawing Near In The Storm

What is your storm?

Every storm is different – some are ripples, some are whirlpools that threaten to throw us overboard.

For all of us, the storm is very difficult. Many of us want to be left alone, and many of us want to handle the storm on our own.

Tonight, I was reminded that Jesus beckons me to draw nearer to Him, even as I labour through the storm. And again, I was comforted by the assurance and certainty that I have in Him. It reminds me why I am a Christian – not just a Sunday church-going Christian – but a Christian with a personal relationship with a God who cares and communicates with me.

It reminds me why I still hold on to Christianity – because apart from the hope I have of salvation, I have a hope and anchor for my whole life. Every step is a step with God, and each trial leads to a stronger, more faithful and trusting relationship with God.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith

Life After Birth

In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.”
“Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?”

The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths. Maybe we will have other senses that we can’t understand now.”

The first replied, “That is absurd. Walking is impossible. And eating with our mouths? Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need. But the umbilical cord is so short. Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”

The second insisted, “Well I think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here. Maybe we won’t need this physical cord anymore.”

The first replied, “Nonsense. And moreover if there is life, then why has no one has ever come back from there? Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery there is nothing but darkness and silence and oblivion. It takes us nowhere.”

“Well, I don’t know,” said the second, “but certainly we will meet Mother and she will take care of us.”

The first replied “Mother? You actually believe in Mother? That’s laughable. If Mother exists then where is She now?”

The second said, “She is all around us. We are surrounded by her. We are of Her. It is in Her that we live. Without Her this world would not and could not exist.”

Said the first: “Well I don’t see Her, so it is only logical that She doesn’t exist.”

To which the second replied, “Sometimes, when you’re in silence and you focus and you really listen, you can perceive Her presence, and you can hear Her loving voice, calling down from above.” – Útmutató a Léleknek

When The Boat Rocks

My second year in university has been a shaky one. I began my applications for vacation schemes in November, and have not stopped applying. Vacation schemes are legal internships where they consider you for a training contract and legal career with the law firm. The theme for this new school year had been ‘Anchor’, but there were and are many times that I have forgotten what this means.

There had always been a struggle with the flesh. Where was I to go after Durham? Surely God had good and wonderful plans that I wanted. I wanted to get a good job among the skyscrapers and work my way up the big commercial ladder. And I kinda thought this was the plan that He had for me.

Yet, I have faced rejection after rejection; or interview then rejection. There were many times I knew the answer was a ‘no’ and I was just waiting for them to officially email me.

And amongst all these, I feel like I’ve been neglecting God’s words to me. He has given me so many verses:

[Jesus] said to them, “It is I; don’t be afraid.” Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading. ~ John 6:20-21

And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:15

I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. ~ John 10:10

know all these things, but I don’t fully believe in with all my heart. I know that God works for the good of all who love Him, I know from my own Durham testimony that He brings us to places that will delight us.

But again and again, I fall. As is with every human relationship that God has, we falter. We withdraw from Him, embrace Him and then withdraw Him. I feel fear and uncertainty. I want to have hope and faith, but in the face of all these three months, I still don’t know where I am going. It’s been a wave of emotions. Tears, sweat, late nights.

I’m afraid of the future (or the seemingly lack of it) and I feel burdened because I know God’s promises and love, but am too afraid to fully dive into the deep end of the sea of faith.

The past school term has had a resounding theme of the sea: storms, boats, anchors, no sight of land to rest. Even my last interview was with a Shipping firm haha.

Oh Lord, I cry out to You. Refresh me with Your Holy Spirit, so that I may be empowered to move into the life that You have planned for me. Please help to remember Your unfailing love. Every day, You relentlessly remind me of your love and promises in my life, but I am too scared. I want to stop clenching my fists and start fully opening my hands so that I may receive what You have for me. In Your plans, I have shelter and peace. In the Holy Spirit, I find power. I want to invite You on my boat, so that You can calm my heart through the stormy sea and brave the waves. Jesus, You can calm the sea – You can even walk on water. Give me faith, perseverance and peace.

[Jesus] said to them, “It is I; don’t be afraid.” Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading.