You Are Faithful

You are faithful, You never give up, never give up on me. You are able, to finish the work You started in me.

You are stable, through every change that this life could bring.

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My Joy Is Complete

27 John answered, “A person cannot receive even one thing unless it is given him from heaven…Therefore this joy of mine is now complete. 30 He must increase, but I must decrease.
John 3:27-30

Every thing is given to me from heaven. Therefore, this joy of mine is now complete. He must increase, but I must decrease.

Seek First

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Matthew 6:25-34

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[a] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Picture taken in Durham

Drawing Near In The Storm

What is your storm?

Every storm is different – some are ripples, some are whirlpools that threaten to throw us overboard.

For all of us, the storm is very difficult. Many of us want to be left alone, and many of us want to handle the storm on our own.

Tonight, I was reminded that Jesus beckons me to draw nearer to Him, even as I labour through the storm. And again, I was comforted by the assurance and certainty that I have in Him. It reminds me why I am a Christian – not just a Sunday church-going Christian – but a Christian with a personal relationship with a God who cares and communicates with me.

It reminds me why I still hold on to Christianity – because apart from the hope I have of salvation, I have a hope and anchor for my whole life. Every step is a step with God, and each trial leads to a stronger, more faithful and trusting relationship with God.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith

She Laughs Without Fear Of The Future

She is clothed with strength and dignity,
and she laughs without fear of the future.

This was a verse that was given to me by a dear friend over Christmas, and I am thankful that I was reminded today of this verse.

As the pastor in my church said on Sunday, I am a full-time Christian, and only part-time university student/future solicitor.

When I remember that my fulfilment is in Christ, then my day job will pale in significance to my true calling.

When The Boat Rocks

My second year in university has been a shaky one. I began my applications for vacation schemes in November, and have not stopped applying. Vacation schemes are legal internships where they consider you for a training contract and legal career with the law firm. The theme for this new school year had been ‘Anchor’, but there were and are many times that I have forgotten what this means.

There had always been a struggle with the flesh. Where was I to go after Durham? Surely God had good and wonderful plans that I wanted. I wanted to get a good job among the skyscrapers and work my way up the big commercial ladder. And I kinda thought this was the plan that He had for me.

Yet, I have faced rejection after rejection; or interview then rejection. There were many times I knew the answer was a ‘no’ and I was just waiting for them to officially email me.

And amongst all these, I feel like I’ve been neglecting God’s words to me. He has given me so many verses:

[Jesus] said to them, “It is I; don’t be afraid.” Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading. ~ John 6:20-21

And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:15

I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. ~ John 10:10

know all these things, but I don’t fully believe in with all my heart. I know that God works for the good of all who love Him, I know from my own Durham testimony that He brings us to places that will delight us.

But again and again, I fall. As is with every human relationship that God has, we falter. We withdraw from Him, embrace Him and then withdraw Him. I feel fear and uncertainty. I want to have hope and faith, but in the face of all these three months, I still don’t know where I am going. It’s been a wave of emotions. Tears, sweat, late nights.

I’m afraid of the future (or the seemingly lack of it) and I feel burdened because I know God’s promises and love, but am too afraid to fully dive into the deep end of the sea of faith.

The past school term has had a resounding theme of the sea: storms, boats, anchors, no sight of land to rest. Even my last interview was with a Shipping firm haha.

Oh Lord, I cry out to You. Refresh me with Your Holy Spirit, so that I may be empowered to move into the life that You have planned for me. Please help to remember Your unfailing love. Every day, You relentlessly remind me of your love and promises in my life, but I am too scared. I want to stop clenching my fists and start fully opening my hands so that I may receive what You have for me. In Your plans, I have shelter and peace. In the Holy Spirit, I find power. I want to invite You on my boat, so that You can calm my heart through the stormy sea and brave the waves. Jesus, You can calm the sea – You can even walk on water. Give me faith, perseverance and peace.

[Jesus] said to them, “It is I; don’t be afraid.” Then they were willing to take him into the boat, and immediately the boat reached the shore where they were heading.