My Blog’s First Year Anniversary!

I just received a wordpress notification – ‘Happy Anniversary with WordPress.com! You registered on WordPress.com one year ago! Thanks for flying with us.’

How time flies! Within this one year,I have learned and grown so much. As much as I have not been consistently blogging, I feel like it is a little part of my life now and I am ever thankful that I get to pen my thoughts, songs of the day and reflections.

My blog has had over 5000 views (not much, but I am thankful for those views!) I pray and hope that in some little way, God was able to touch the heart of each viewer through what He has encouraged me to write. Be it my daily struggles, my Christian walk, my testimony or just the songs that I post, I hope that you have been able to see the God that I see, and love the God that I love.

With this, I leave you with three points:

1. Update on Lent

It’s the second day of Lent and as promised, I am trying to give up pessimism. Today didn’t start out too well, given that there was an essay due, I still don’t understand land law, and exam preparation is looming. It reminded me of how difficult it is to give pessimism up. I realise that there are days where I literally live for pessimism. I thrive on pessimism and the worries of my life. If there are worries, I worry. If there are no worries, I worry more. Thus, it has been hard to hide the clouds and bring the sunshine out in my mind.

Also, there is a fine line between pessimism and being realistic. I suppose that I first started out being realistic, but that evolved into pessimism. But then again, I think the key is relying on God, because that reliance will allow me to be realistic about God’s outcome and optimistic about His plans in my life.

2. Live the YOLO life, live the Christian life

Having just come out of the Christian Evangelism week run by Durham University, I have been encouraged by the searching, curiosity and exploration by so many non-Christians. Yet, I also sense a lot of hesitation. Of course, there is a need to come to a coherent and reasoned decision to become a Christian but if this decision takes a long time to reach or think about, it eventually dies. It eventually becomes a decision not to become a Christian not because there was a clear decision not to, but rather because the interest waned.

I believe that every important decision in life should be made after much contemplation, and not through the waning of interest through time.

Besides, what have we got to lose? It’s like bungie jumping, take a deep breath and jump! It’s about the experience, the adrenaline, the excitement, the emotions.

If hypothetically, God does not exist, what have you got to lose? You lived your life with hope, assurance and love. And if God exists, even better! You made the right choice! You only live once, so don’t waste chances.

3. God loves you

If you haven’t already gotten the feel of my blog, it’s about His love. It’s about His guidance and relentless love.

There has not been a day that I thought a god could actually truly love me, my darkness and weird habits. Yet, in the bible, Jesus dwelt with the tax collectors, the poor, the prostitutes. I was all of them combined, but God chose me. I have been purified and lifted up as His princess.

You may not think He loves you, but that definitely does not change the fact that He loves you. How do I know that? Simple. Because Jesus saw everything you did and are doing now, but chose to die on the cross for you 2000 years ago. He looked into the future and saw you, and wanted to take your punishment. It’s like the song I used to sing as a child and I slowly began to understand the weight of those words:

You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

The greatest love of all of one that is willing to die for another. I cannot imagine a greater love.

And if you don’t feel it, well the best love is one that is reciprocated. Let Him into your life and let Him show His love. 🙂

So PTL for the blessing of blogging. Throwback to nights when I’ll run for the laptop to post a song or verse. Or those half an hours trying to type out a whole excerpt from a book. Or those emotional posts where I poured my heart out.

It’s been a wonderful experience and I can’t wait to write more.

In His love,


What I’m Giving Up For Lent


Woah, what did you say? Yes, pessimism. This lent, I’m going to look at the bright side of things, and in every failure, I am going to look at the positive aspects.

Last year, I gave up chocolate which was absolutely torturous, since I live for chocolate. And this year, I’ve put myself up for an even bigger challenge.

In many respects, I think it’s easy to give something external up. Normally, people give up a certain type of food that they like. Or some people try to stop a certain habit. Yet, one of the hardest things to do, is to change your thoughts and your mentality. Perhaps even harder, is the constant reminder to be less pessimistic about life and other people.

So hopefully, these next 40 days will be fruitful. Hopefully, I will be able to survive this desert where pessimism bears no fruit.

Please keep me in your prayers. Pray that I will have perseverance and willpower to always look to Him, even when things don’t look so good.

‘May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.’
Psalm 19:14

Life Is Beautiful


Very often, we forget that life is beautiful, no matter what life holds.
I have come to realise that my worldly pursuits have dulled my soul. I look forward to worrying, and I worry when I have no worries.
I forget to be thankful.
The poster and sticky notes are stuck on my cupboard right by my bed so that when I wake up, the first thing I see are these.
But days have passed and I have become desensitised. And today I was reminded of how blind I was.
My daily happiness should not be determined by how much work I have finished, or how many placements I have secured.
Life is beautiful because I have Him; and I have Him to hold my hand as I walk through life.
Life is beautiful just because.

Life After Birth

In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replied, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.”
“Nonsense” said the first. “There is no life after delivery. What kind of life would that be?”

The second said, “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths. Maybe we will have other senses that we can’t understand now.”

The first replied, “That is absurd. Walking is impossible. And eating with our mouths? Ridiculous! The umbilical cord supplies nutrition and everything we need. But the umbilical cord is so short. Life after delivery is to be logically excluded.”

The second insisted, “Well I think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here. Maybe we won’t need this physical cord anymore.”

The first replied, “Nonsense. And moreover if there is life, then why has no one has ever come back from there? Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery there is nothing but darkness and silence and oblivion. It takes us nowhere.”

“Well, I don’t know,” said the second, “but certainly we will meet Mother and she will take care of us.”

The first replied “Mother? You actually believe in Mother? That’s laughable. If Mother exists then where is She now?”

The second said, “She is all around us. We are surrounded by her. We are of Her. It is in Her that we live. Without Her this world would not and could not exist.”

Said the first: “Well I don’t see Her, so it is only logical that She doesn’t exist.”

To which the second replied, “Sometimes, when you’re in silence and you focus and you really listen, you can perceive Her presence, and you can hear Her loving voice, calling down from above.” – Útmutató a Léleknek