Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour
This song brings back so many memories.
This idea of God leading us to swim where our feet can no longer feel the ground first settled in my heart during Church camp 2013, where God continued to write my journey. The song reminds me of faith; faith that I have the unseen, yet omniscient and omnipotent God who loves me more than I can ever imagine.
Hours after the Lord melted my heart with the words ‘everything and more’, I attended a workshop by Aunt Ai Bee which was called something along the lines of ‘Quiet Time with God’ or ‘Hearing God In Your Quiet Time’. As part of the workshop, we had to find some place in the hotel, sit down and just focus on God, and ask Him to speak to us.
So, where did I go? I went to the top floor where the swimming pool was. And I sat at the bench facing the swimming pool, with the city in front of me and the sun on my face. What a beautiful place to be calm in the presence of the Lord.
The time limit was 20 minutes. So I set my timer on my phone. And I waited. I focused on God, on His love and asked him to speak to me, anything. All I wanted was to hear Him or feel something.
17 minutes on, I was still waiting. Then the word ‘faith’ kept coming to me. If my God is so big, surely I can have faith to wait on Him. If I can have faith in Him for big things, surely I can trust Him with small things. ‘Have faith that I will hear Him’
THEN SUDDENLY, my attention was diverted to a family that was swimming in the adult pool. The youngest child, a boy probably about 7, got up and ran into the children’s pool.
Dad: What are you doing in that pool?
Kid: I like this swimming pool.
Dad: But it’s the kids pool
Kid: But this is the normal-sized pool!
And then, it struck me. And that’s how this song really related to me. We are like that little child, we have our Heavenly Father to take our hands and watch over us as we swim in the adult pool. Yet, we choose to swim in the baby pool, because we think that is the normal pool; because it is proportionate to our size. We choose the situations and challenges that we think we can handle on our own strengths. In our experiences, we would rather just wade in the shallow waters of the children’s pool.
Yet, faith is going to the big pool. Faith is swimming in water where we can’t see our feet; where we don’t know where the bottom of the pool is. But we focus our eyes on God, because He is with us in the big pool.
Back then, this scene really spoke to me because He had literally JUST called me to Durham and He wanted me to start swimming in the big pool.
Now, I think it applies to a lot of situations. Like this morning, my friends wanted to go somewhere and celebrate in a perfectly normal way. According to the world, it was a perfectly sociable way of spending the rest of the day. But I prayed and I really didn’t want to go. But this was not how I was supposed to live. Socialising in this way would not honour God. There was an inner conflict within me: my God vs myself; my reputation; my friends; my social life. I prayed and I reminded myself that I needed to have faith. God will provide a way out of this. My heart is willing, and God is willing to answer.
And to my surprise, things did get better. Suddenly, someone couldn’t make it and thus, the plans were ditched. PTL!!!
Indeed, if I have faith as small as a mustard seed, the mountains will be moved.
In all situations in life, may we put our trust in Him. Just as I trust in the Lord that He would speak to me in the last 3 minutes of a workshop in Malaysia. Just as He revealed to me how faith is likened to a trusting child who swims in the deep waters, with his eyes fixed on his Daddy. Just as I put my faith in God this morning. Just as I put my faith in Him for all my formative and summative essays.
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